I GAVE UP!!

I GAVE UP the things that held me captive to the most darkest thoughts that kept me bound to deceit! I GAVE UP those things that simply angered me and knocked me clean off my feet! I GAVE UP those past hurts lies and the feeling of ultimate defeat, In order to RECIEVE I GAVE UP those lonely nights cold and afraid, asking God to reign down on my life to feel the void, comfort my pain. I GAVE UP those inner feelings that kept me bound to unworthiness, guilt pain and shame! I gave up on those people who only spoke nasty things on my name. I GAVE UP to RECIEVE. RECIEVE, peace, Joy, Love and freedom to be. Learning to RECIEVE love instead of lifes constant storms and rain. Recieving the hope that someday my life would change, because I GAVE UP on the lost me in order to gain. I GAVE UP on your lies and your cheating ways. I GAVE UP on your promises and hurtful ways. I GAVE UP on the urge to hurt you the same. I GAVE UP to RECIEVE a brighter day! you can keep all of you lies, you can keep all your snide smiles, you can keep you broken promises.. you should be ashamed!!! I GAVE UP in order to prove that all in all you will always be the same!!! I GAVE UP on the old self in exchange for the new, cause the new me... well she just dont feel the same!!! I GAVE UP! Sometimes its not about giving up on the people around us, but more so about giving up on the person we are. Sometimes your own worst enemy is yourself. You allow the things that happen to you happen because you want them. It doesn't matter how you sugar coat it, if the stuff your going through in life is weighing you down 9 times out of 10 you allowed it to take existance over your life. Everybody's story is different but in some way we all relate. Just sitting here thinking about the mess I allowed to consume my life... You would think I should be ashamed! I'm not. BecauSe I gave up on those things holding me bondage! Heres a couple of examples. when I moved into my first apartment I thought I was the whipp okay... lol couldnt tell me nothing! Had sleep overs friends hanging almost everynight, We partying it up and at first I was doing good paying bills on time and on the right track till one day it was this outfit I wanted and I had to dig in the bill money, Then I was short and spiraled down hill form there. That eviction... yeah eviction, can't blame it on nobody but Erica. I gave up on the old her though.. Relationships.. lets not even go there.. gave up on that foolish girl too!!! Glad I did it!! lol. Sometimes we have to take a step back and stop blaming others for our downfalls and be Man/Woman enough to except that MOST of the time we are the way were are because we allowed it! I was telling my Husband today how proud of US I am.. We have come a very long way! Why? Because we gave up on the old man and put on the new man! I challenge you to evaluate your situations today! Ask your self.. Am I the cause of this broken relationship? Am I the cause of this finacial pitfall? Am I the reason I cant seem to get closer with God?!!! Can You give it up today??? Father, coming as boldly as I know how, I ask that you take over where we give up! God I ask that you go into the hearts of every reader and show them where they are in life. For those that are held captive to them selves and the ways that are not like you, Father show them a more excellent way! Lord, I ask that you continue to keep me humble on this journey Lord, I hear you saying to be bold in you, and to dig deep into the things that need to be touched upon! Father, please continue to show me the way and keep my pathway lit and straight! Father I ask that once you reveal your self in their life that they give up the old man and put on the new man leaving all of their passed in the past!! Father touch us like only you can, We love you Jesus for you are Lord of Lords and the King of all kings! Lead us to a more perfect way in Jesus name, Amen.